It’s about love… [Take-46]

[Continued from Take-7][Take -45][Beginning of the story]

Back to ‘Preparing for the day’

Anyway, I decided that I’d do it the next time we coincidentally meet online on a weekend. - Two and a half months passed, after having decided. I kept swinging between hope and dispair. The more I talked to her, the more convinced I was about my decision. And more confused about her feelings. If there is something more complex than Einstein’s space-time continuum theory, it has to be your lady’s brain. One day it seems she can’t live without me, the very next day it appears as if there is long way to go. But I knew I need to stop thinking about her’s (because I don’t know them), and focus on mine. I was convinced that there is no sure way to find out her feelings until I share mine. That’s what she had taught me. “If you like her, tell her.” Twice a day she has to ask me if I was seeing someone, and twice a day I had to convince her that I was not.

But the question still was, Do I like her? Yes I do. But Am I ready to commit? Now this one’s a googly. You are never sure how much the ball will turn until you play the shot. I think the only way to find out is to talk to her about it. Share the feelings. See how it goes about. What if she says “Yes”. Horror! My life would just change in a single moment. In an instant the weight of the world will be pushed on my shoulders. I would need to talk to my family about it, and convince them… then talk to her family, convince them too. Huff! it can be huge. But is it possible? I am no Shahrukh Khan that she’d be desperate to be with me. I convinced myself that even if she’s interested, she won’t say ‘Yes’ instantly! And I’ll have enough time to find out. Period.

[To be continued...][Ummeed-o-yaas]